forgive me..my mistakes..

salam..

hmm...actualy,honestly,and truely, i feel like crying..
not sure with wat i want for my future...
too many obstacles keep on pressuring me..
though there are such a beautiful life waiting for me..
too kind for me...too humble and gentle...understanding...
dunno why i still keep on staring at the different site...
the egoistic, paranoia, ignorant and kind of dat stuff...
i know i must face it whether i am willing to or not..
dat kind of things did give me frustrated and tears..
looking back to my past time stories...too sad..too bad...
asking for forgiveness from the people we've hurt was really hard..
some of them are ready to forgive and forget..thankx to ALLAH..
but...wat about the others dat cant forget wat we had done to them?
though too many times we've repeated the same phrases..same words..
"im sorry for wat i have done to you..."
"i am so sorry im too bad to you.."
"just let the past time flow..let it go away.."
"im sorry..plis 4get it and leave it.."
time by time...over seconds, hours, day, night, months, and years...
it was impossible for everybody to forget our mistakes...my mistakes..my bad..
as u cant forgive me my wrongs...
i will leave it to my Rabb..
i have no power to change everything...
i have no power to make u understand me..
i have no power to make u forgive me n forget my mistakes..
i have no power to convince u dat im different from wat i am to u before..
only to Allah i will surrender...
only to Allah i pray...i hope everything will be okey...
i hope everything will be forgotten and over..
i will not down with wat u said...though im crying at dat time..
coz i know..Allah knows me better than others...better than u..better than anyone..
u can say wat u want bout me...
u can judge me by ol ways dat u want...but please..
please dont treat me like i am wat i am long time ago...
please accept the fate..we are not meant together..
please understand..
please forgive me...
please forget it...coz i also dont want to remember it...
if by forgeting me, u will able to forget my wrongs...just do it..
i will be happier by that..
as long as u will forgive all my mistakes..dat will be fine for me..
i pray to Allah...hope dat one time..soon..u will forgive me...
and forget everything..
thank you for sharing bad memories...
reminding me with my bad deeds before..
may Allah bless u in wat ever u do..
fiddunya wal'akhirah...


when i leave sumthing...
it is just becoz i know it is not good for me...
when i go away from some one...
it is just becoz i know dat im not suits them well...
when i disappear from crowded..
it is just becoz i dont want people to remember me..
coz i know such things will happen..
and surely it's really happens now...


i am sorry...
dat is all i can say...





_end of the story_

sharing questions....u can answer with wat u want...

if an ignorant once accept ISLAM as his way of life,

believe that it was the true religion and revelation from Allah The Almighty,

do all dat Allah had command/order,

left all the wrongdoings and bad deeds dat he had done before...

and redha with his life now... ,

is it fair to treat him wif wat he was long time ago?

is it fair to remind him dat he is a killer, robber, gambler, player,

or anything bad bout him before he accept ISLAM?

are we sure it is the best way to give a lesson?

~ask your heart~